i hope you’re doing well. i bet you’re excited about the new season of your show starting next week. i know i am!!
i was just driving to my boyfriend’s house and i had an epiphany. i cry in my car a lot. admittedly, i am a crier. i know it’s hard to believe with this hard candy shell of mine. but i really need that to contain all the feelings i have. but tonight i was just driving, no big deal, just listening to music. then a song from a musical came on and that was it. the floodgates were open. i wept for a good 15 blocks. and it was awesome. sometimes we just need a good cry. while i had already cried a few times today (watching endless wedding dress and home reno shows will do that to me) i guess i had a few more tears that wanted to flourish.
once that was done, i realized i really do cry in my car a lot. and i started to wonder why. i can think of many times when, after a hard day, i got to my car and just let everything out. i can also think of times i cried nervously and had to call my sister, mom, step-dad or boyfriend to calm down. seriously, so many times. but there have also been times just like tonight where the tears just came out of nowhere.
i think my car has become a safe haven for me, after having cried so many tears in it. it’s a bit like in ‘anchorman’ when ron burgundy says he is in a glass case of emotion.
i can cry and scream and emote like a crazy person. and the best part is that if someone sees me and thinks i’m insane, i just make a quick right turn and i can lose them and keep crying to my heart’s content!
so yeah, while i cry pretty much anywhere when i need to, today i realized my car is best place to cry. i can’t wait till the next time i need a good cry. maybe i’ll put a sad movie on my ipad and set up shop. if only open having wine in a vehicle wasn’t illegal or i could have the perfect set up! two out of three isn’t too bad though!
take care anderson,